A little bit of Christmas!

This is just a little bit of our 2009 Christmas!!! Thankfully, aside from snotty noses (which is the norm for our kiddos)- everyone was over the horrible stomach bug! We had such a wonderful Christmas complete with the kids getting even more spoiled! It is so wonderful to know that we are all loved by so many people. I think God just has ways of putting people and things in place when he knows you need them the most.

This was probably the best family photo we got this year- it's hard to get 3 little ones to look in the same direction AND smile at the same time! This pic was snapped in between Conner Dean crying! I am a little sad to know this is my last-first Christmas! no more babies!!!!!

I hope this New year is wonderful.......

My Sweet JD

I love this little boy! He is a total sweet heart and is a comedian!!! He has a precious giggle and does some unbelieveable cute things.......

So, to all the rude people out there...... There is nothing wrong with my baby! Yes- he's small. Yes- he has a BIRTH MARK (hemangioma) on his nose, but,that doesn't mean something happened to him. And NO- he isn't talking yet. ( I understand he's almost 2 and you are amazed that he doesn't talk).


But, ya know what..... he almost died. He was a tiny 1 pound 12 oz baby that contracted several serious infections.... one of which kills 90% of babies that get it- and he survived! And regardless of how hard it if for me to deal with his speech delay- I am just beyond blessed that he's still in our lives. I would NEVER ask a parent what was wrong with their kids face- why are people so rude???


OK- soap box.... I'm getting off now!

Like it's your last day....

Last week, I had a dream that shook me to my core- brought me to my knees in fear! I dreamed that this sweet little girl was gone... No longer in my life. This dream was so vivid and real- I was hysterically sobbing and was almost unable to control my emotions when I woke up and realized that this precious girl was snuggled beside me in the bed. I can not imagine my life without Tay in it- the joy she brings to me and others.... She is so loved by so many people. I am so lucky to be her mommy. I have dealt with the idea and possiblity of losing her before... but, that was 4 years ago when I didn't know how much I could truly love this precious little love.....I have been so nervous the past week to let her out of my sight- afraid it may be the last time that I hug or kiss her.... I make she she knows I love her "higher than the highest kite ever flown, deeper than the deepest fish ever swam... I love you more, so much more than you're ever known."

And I hope they do.... all know that I love them more than they could ever know.... I cannot imagine my life without my babies!

(Just an FYI- I would be equally lost if I lost JD or Conner, but, she was the one in the dream...) (I am all teary as I write this even.... someone told me to write it down, that it would help take it off my mind.... that's what I'm trying)